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[ un: han.solo ... or sometimes spider-man ]
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[ un: han.solo ... or sometimes spider-man ]
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i know you're not the peter from my world but i made a promise
a lot of promises
that i'd look out for other people like us
not try to frickin kill them
what am i gonna do if i lose control like that again
there's a lot to unpack with what happened that night
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i get it
don't feel like you gotta take all of that responsibility on yourself though
i mean
is there any way i can help? with the symbiote thing? like how to help you
idk control it?
what else do you know about it?
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but this place is wearing at that control so
i mean
i just listen to music, usually
there's something about having something outside of my own head to focus on that helps me get the thing in check
i don't really know much about it
it can kind of shapeshift
i have a symbiote.. suit, i guess, for when i need a mask
they're like little spiders
but sometimes it's a blob
it's all really really weird
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like music or whatever?
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i carry them around always
that's the other weird thing too usually i can feel it
if something is pushing at my nerves i can literally feel it getting pissed
if not just straight up tells me
there was no warning this time
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maybe it was triggered by something else? something that couldn't be predicted?
i mean we were all acting kinda weird in there
maybe that's part of it
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although you didn't seem effected by it..?
did it get worse after i left or something?
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no
no i did get affected by it
sort of
something happened to a lot of ppl when it turned midnight
[ god this is awkward af isn't it ]
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midnight was definitely
a time yeah
[ now she's wondering if they both made awkward kissing choices. it's fine. ]
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so i don't think any of us were spared from it
maybe it just hit you twice as hard
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ugh
is there a "hide in your room until you wake up from this nightmare town" option i could maybe choose now?
[ of course she's not totally serious, but. like. it's tempting. ]
the idea of venom being yet another thing they have to worry about here makes my head hurt
and that includes you probably most of all since you've seen it at its worst now
or seen something like its worst anyway
that was all kind of new, even for us
her
the symbiote
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but i don't think doing nothing's gonna help so
it's okay
i mean, i guess i'm glad it was me and not someone else who might not have spider powers to help themselves
speaking of which
i guess you know, huh?
about me
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i'm NOT glad it was you
i will never ever be able to apologize enough
and you're right about the spider power thing but still
not okay
i do know now, yeah
i mean i kinda hoped
but knowing for sure is pretty great
not at all how i imagined i'd find out
but yeah
is it okay with you? that i know?
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i don't know what's going on with you and this symbiote thing but i trust you gwen
i kinda wish you didn't find out this way though like i wasn't trying to hide it from you specifically
it's just
when i first got here i wasn't really like super careful about keeping my identity a secret bc i didn't think it'd matter
this place being a dream and all
but anyone could show up
and anyone could use my secret against me if they knew
so i learned better
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but i get it, for sure
there's still a couple people from home that i wouldn't want showing up here, secret or not
and i definitely trust you too
i didn't want anybody to find out about the symbiote
it never should have even come up
but of course this place found a way! why not
if it had to be anyone that had to see that i'm
not GLAD it was you
but i'm glad it was you
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that means a lot
even if it's about something kind of terrifying
but it's okay it's cool
i still think you're awesome
that part hasn't changed