if peter actually asked her "what is happening right now" she would only be able to respond with i have literally no idea. it's not like she planned this, or even actively thought about it at all until today. well, maybe once or twice. in a general way. in a people do this way. but anyway, it's happening, and it's not quite 100% relief when he doesn't outwardly panic, but it's close, because the way he moves his fingers against hers doesn't feel like a rejection at all. so it's about 74% relief. which is better than 0%.
math. hah.
anyway.
she hasn't held hands with anyone pretty much ever, but definitely since she was bitten by that gross spider. but that doesn't matter! there's no worry about her hands feeling a little harsh or sticky or whatever. peter will know what it is, if it happens. so, let's make it 79%. that seems like a good number. the tension is slipping out of her shoulders, at least, and the grip on his hand seems less calculated and more relaxed too. so that's a start. and her cheeks are a little pink but it has less to do with worrying about peter's reaction and more to do with the fact that they're on a bus full of people she only half knows from stories peter's told her. not that they're paying any attention to them. right? they never have before. but still. they could look, and-
well that doesn't actually worry her much at all. 'cause, y'know. let them see. it makes the heat in her cheeks feel a little different, thinking about the kids on the bus wondering what was going on with her and peter. and not in a bad way.
but. like. now what? ]
Ssso. [ WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS, GWENDOLYN MAXINE STACY ] So. I- [ kinda like this. is where her head was going to go with that sentence, but that's lame, isn't it? she wouldn't have done it if she didn't like it. dur. so. ] I should have asked instead of just peer pressuring you to hold hands with me, huh? [ or that ] This is okay? [ we can make sort of a joke of it, sure. that's an idea. ] I didn't really think past the whole wanting to do it with you thing. [ wait ] "It" being hand holding, not- anything else.
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if peter actually asked her "what is happening right now" she would only be able to respond with i have literally no idea. it's not like she planned this, or even actively thought about it at all until today. well, maybe once or twice. in a general way. in a people do this way. but anyway, it's happening, and it's not quite 100% relief when he doesn't outwardly panic, but it's close, because the way he moves his fingers against hers doesn't feel like a rejection at all. so it's about 74% relief. which is better than 0%.
math. hah.
anyway.
she hasn't held hands with anyone pretty much ever, but definitely since she was bitten by that gross spider. but that doesn't matter! there's no worry about her hands feeling a little harsh or sticky or whatever. peter will know what it is, if it happens. so, let's make it 79%. that seems like a good number. the tension is slipping out of her shoulders, at least, and the grip on his hand seems less calculated and more relaxed too. so that's a start. and her cheeks are a little pink but it has less to do with worrying about peter's reaction and more to do with the fact that they're on a bus full of people she only half knows from stories peter's told her. not that they're paying any attention to them. right? they never have before. but still. they could look, and-
well that doesn't actually worry her much at all. 'cause, y'know. let them see. it makes the heat in her cheeks feel a little different, thinking about the kids on the bus wondering what was going on with her and peter. and not in a bad way.
but. like. now what? ]
Ssso. [ WHY ARE YOU LIKE THIS, GWENDOLYN MAXINE STACY ] So. I- [ kinda like this. is where her head was going to go with that sentence, but that's lame, isn't it? she wouldn't have done it if she didn't like it. dur. so. ] I should have asked instead of just peer pressuring you to hold hands with me, huh? [ or that ] This is okay? [ we can make sort of a joke of it, sure. that's an idea. ] I didn't really think past the whole wanting to do it with you thing. [ wait ] "It" being hand holding, not- anything else.